Today’s challenge is interesting because I haven’t really thought of the three songs which are very important in my life and this is kind of a chance to connect to my soul , my mind, my internal being to decide the three most important songs in my life.
I recall, while I was in Manila in the beginning of April which is summer time in the Philippines, my sister and I were on the beach together with some friends, we were looking at the sunset. Funny how the universe simply converges everything at one time. My sister brought her bluetooth speakers with her and we sat there on the sand, we just took a shower and our hair was damp. I was staring at the beautiful sunset and the sky when “Dusk and Summer” by Dashboard Confessional played on her speakers. I felt sad and my heart became heavy. It was a flashback of the moment I had with a first love of mine. He still is an inspiration for my poetry and blogs. To be clear, I no longer love him. But there is that feeling which lingers with you when you experience a love so real, for the first time, in such a wonderful place. I still write about the place where I met him, his characteristic and I’m thankful for those wonderful memories. Some people are meant to just serve as inspiration, though. They make you feel loved, he made me feel loved and special and as a woman, I felt the luckiest. But things had to happen, right? And we both didn’t have to be bitter about our ending. Now, he has a family and I know he’s happy because that’s what he always wanted. This song reminds me of what we had, of that beautiful love affair we spent in the mountains. But just like the sunset, it had to end. There’s a point of no return in every sun set that happens and every summer is just a short break that will, also, not last. “Dusk and Summer”. Here are some lines from that song, “She looked deep into you as you lay together, quiet in the grass of dusk and summer. But you’ve already lost, but you’ve already lost, but you’ve already lost when you’ve only had barely enough to hang on”. See? This song was the best hint of my ending with that guy. He knew we had barely enough to hang on but still, we tried.
The next song which is important to me is “Feels Like Home” by Chantal Kreviazuk. Every time I hear this song, I have a mixed feeling of sadness and happiness. This is a soundtrack of a movie. If I’m not mistaken, I think it’s “How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days”. I love that movie starring Kate Hudson. Her name was Andy in that movie and my nickname is “Andee”, now even the movie is significant. 🙂 I’ve been in love several times and every time, the feeling is just like home. I think that I’d always want to go back to that time when I first fell in love because it feels wonderful, beautiful, every time. Regardless of the number of times I’ve broken my heart, I think that getting hurt is all part of the process, and you do not become a better person, a better lover if you’ve never been hurt and if you haven’t seen other people’s imperfections but still you chose to love. Here are some lines from the song:
Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I’ve waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I’d love anyone so much
When you’ve finally found a person you love, love that person so much and it every day will feel like home with him or her.
The third song which is important to me or has made a big impact in my life is “Ordinary Song”. It’s been rendered by different artists but the one I like the most is that of David Pomeranz. Every time I listen to that song, it’s like I’m in trance. The words are so lovely, so humbling yet it is the true expression of a simple man’s love to a special woman. I think that a man who is truly in love will do everything to win the heart of the woman that he loves. I know that I am being loved by a simple man right now. I love the idea of him being the breadwinner of his family, he is a provider. I know that he is capable of working hard for our own family in the future. Being a simple man, he is not selfish, he doesn’t focus on material things to keep our relationship alive. He found me, he made a move to win my heart and I know that what we have is wonderful. I can see it in his eyes, just how much he loves me. I love the fact that he’s not some other selfish guy who’s capable of cheating or luring women with their riches. He knows for a fact, that I, too, love the beauty and the simplicity of what we have now and I know that he will stay.
But if you ever find yourself
Tired of all the games you play
When the world seems so unfair
You can count on me to stay
Just take sometime to lend an ear
To this ordinary song